Time Takes Us All, So Why Am I Not Just Living For Today?

Ewww!! posting is so odd now!!! Hello all!! its been.. months. Oops. :/ I bet you all hate me now!! *sob* But, Im writing this as I go now. No pre- writen emails. and from now on, Its by just me. Wish me luck! <3 you all!

Even if it kills me
By me (panicfanatic0421) and my BFF Ashley!!(panicfanatic320)

Chapter 20

Brendon's POV: Ryan pulled in at our house not even taking the time to park properly. We all helped carry in the multiple bags of goodies. I ran down to the basement puling out old flashing and bright lights, a stobe, and a fog machine. "Its gonna be like a rave with candy instead of drugs!" Ry smiled at me. God his smile was gorgeous. I leaned in and kissed him lightly as Ashley let out a huge "Awwwhh!!!"

Ryan's POV: My cheeks began burning red and Bren stuck…

Shank me for taking so long! so so sorry guys! But here it is!!! Chapter 19!
I think its deffinitly gotten out of a story line, but went i continue actually WRITING it, ill try to get it on one =]

Even if it kills me
By me (panicfanatic0421) and my BFF Ashley!!(panicfanatic320)

Chapter 19

Brendon's POV: Ryan pulled away, and I knew he was right. We can go to the supermarket pick-maybe pickup Ashley. We got in the car and drove off. Next thing I knew we pulled up at Ashley's house in the pouring rain. She was standing on her porch in a black rain coat, rain hat, and rain boots.  It was funny to see a 20 year old girl in an outfit that would normally be for little girls. I couldn't help but laugh, and Ryan joined in.

Working on a new story (AND ITS NOT A RYDEN O.o!!!)!!! ( in other words ... this ones drawing to an end guys =[ )

HAD to edit this.. some of it didnt make sense from typos haha!!

Even if it kills me
By me (panicfanatic0421) and my BFF Ashley!!(panicfanatic320)

Chapter 18 ***WARNING--- "CONTENT"

Brendon's POV: He knew how to make me crack. He got the movements perfect, and made me want more. Then when I wrapped my arms around his waist, that did it. I kept hammering into him harder and faster, making his breathing quicken and taking mine away. I pressed down a few more times and I could feel his entire body tighten, including his ass. This made me push into him even harder. "Bren,i-i-im GONNA,” he cut off and screamed and moaned at the top of his lungs. I joined in as my body felt…

Woooo!! More unedited fun! haha xD Mid terms tomorrow! DX WISH ME LUCK!

Gettin to the end of where i wrote... need to write more sooon!
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Even if it kills me
By me (panicfanatic0421) and my BFF Ashley!!(panicfanatic320)

Chapter 17 ***WARNING--- "CONTENT"

Brendon's POV: We had gotten to leave the clinic for about a week... some kind of experiment i dont know. But it made me happy. Ashley dropped me and Ry off at my house and we said bye to her. We went in the house and I grabbed us each some ice cream. "Go sit on the sofa and we can watch a movie." I said holding the ice cream up so he could see it. He smiled big and scurried over to sit down and began to watch Aladin. I laughed at him and placed his bowl in his lap, lightly brushing his upper…

Ight Guys I have been gone for a damn long time! Ive got like 100 favs built up and i sure as hell aint checkin them at 1:30 am. I havent posted a chap inn a LONG time ad i feel bad! Im so sorry guys. AND HOLY SHIT! Makeover!! Its all weird when i came on im like WTF?!? AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAANYWAY! Ill prolly be on hiatus til around like.. january. I will leave u guys with a long chapter tho and im gonna need to write more im about up to where i last wrote. i really love all of the positivity ive gotten from everyone! Thanks oh so much! Happy holidays!! I hope you all have a white (insert celebrated holiday here)! I CANT WAIT TO GET MY GEETAR!! XD haha.

Here it is. Unedited (cuz im lazy and tired and had coffee but caffine DOESN'T HELP ME!) in its original form…

Sorry It took me so long to get up another chapter. Been kinda busy =/
But anyway.. ENJOY!
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Even if it kills me
By me (panicfanatic0421) and my BFF Ashley!!(panicfanatic320)

Chapter 15

Brendon's POV: I stood looking in the mirror. I wiped the lint of my suit jaket and ran my hand through my gelled back hair. I felt the sting of tears then hot steams down my cheeks. I quickly wiped them away and felt Ryans arms snake around my waist. He put his head on my shoulder and kissed my neck. He looked amazing beautiful, all dressed up. Another tear fell from my eye and he kissed it softly. "It's okay baby. She's in a better place now." I knew that. Everyone said that. That's all I've heard, but she was my best friend besides Ryan. I miss her. I wanted to punch the…

Im soooo sorry that i didnt post the next day! Dx BUUT ITS HERE NOW!! So SMILE!!! lol enjoy!!!
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Even if it kills me
By me (panicfanatic0421) and my BFF Ashley!!(panicfanatic320)

Chapter 14 (long chapter my loverlys!)

Brendon's POV: I stood up and got my phone. I opened it and put it to my ear figuring it would be Summer. "Hey-yo!" I said happily. Some man with a very official sounding voice said, "Mr. Brendon Urie?" "Yeah?" I asked now concered. "Im sorry, but Summer was found dead on her bed today. She died of over dose." I hung up. I couldn't believe it. I broke. I started crying so hard and Ryan tried to ask me what was wrong, but I couldnt answer. I fell to the ground and cried into my hands. Why'd she have to go and do that? I was sobbing now and Ryan just came and…

Xo What happened? I lost like... half my readers... but it's its what ever. Im happy i have the readers that I do!! You guys rock!! Thank you all for the comments and buzzes!! <33 oX
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Even if it kills me
By me (panicfanatic0421) and my BFF Ashley!!(panicfanatic320)

Chapter 13 {short chapter sorrys}

Ryan's POV: I woke up in my room. My head was aching. I felt like I was having a hangover from way to much alcohol. I rolled over and there, sleeping besides me, was Brendon. He was beautiful. His pale skin so clear and perfect. His chest just moved up and down slightly as he breathed. He looked so calm. I laid my head on his chest and wrapped my arm around his body. This must've woke him up because his hand came up and rubbed my cheek slowly…

IM ACTUALLY GONNA EDIT IT THIS TIME!! lmao!!!

Chapter 12 {Bitchesss!! lmao}

Summer's POV: I kept dreaming of blackness. Of stupid memories of me and him. I saw me and him on the beach, our first date, then everything went black. I was walking through complete darkness. Then he was right infront of me. He raised his fist and brought it hard to my hip. I screamed and sat up in my bed. Brendon jumped in the seat he apparently had fallen asleep in. I rubbed the bruise on my hip and groaned. My closed my eyes tight and the tears fell fast. Brendon was at my side quickly. He put his arms around me and I hugged him tight. His hoodie still had my masscara all over it…

Chapter 11

Summer's POV: The door slamed hard as I sat on the ground sobbing. I had to call Brendon. I picked up the phone and dialed his number. "Hey-yo!" Brendon answered. I felt so bad, he sounded so happy and I was about to pour this out on him, but I had to tell someone... "He broke up with me Bren. He fucking broke up with me," I said through sobs. "Oh Summer! Why?"  "I wouldnt use with him. He wanted me to do coke with him and I told him no. So he left. And he hit me Bren. I dont know what to do anymore. I loved him. I LOVE him." I was balling my eyes out and Brendon told me he'd come over.