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Even If It Kills Me Chapter 20
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4 mos ago
Ewww!! posting is so odd now!!! Hello all!! its been.. months. Oops. :/ I bet you all hate me now!! *sob* But, Im writing this as I go now. No pre- writen emails. and from now on, Its by just me. Wish me luck! <3 you all!
Even if it kills me
Chapter 20 Brendon's POV: Ryan pulled in at our house not even taking the time to park properly. We all helped carry in the multiple bags of goodies. I ran down to the basement puling out old flashing and bright lights, a stobe, and a fog machine. "Its gonna be like a rave with candy instead of drugs!" Ry smiled at me. God his smile was gorgeous. I leaned in and kissed him lightly as Ashley let out a huge "Awwwhh!!!" Ryan's POV: My cheeks began burning red and Bren stuck |
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Even If It Kills Me Chapter 15
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1 yr ago
Sorry It took me so long to get up another chapter. Been kinda busy =/ Even if it kills me
Chapter 15 Brendon's POV: I stood looking in the mirror. I wiped the lint of my suit jaket and ran my hand through my gelled back hair. I felt the sting of tears then hot steams down my cheeks. I quickly wiped them away and felt Ryans arms snake around my waist. He put his head on my shoulder and kissed my neck. He looked amazing beautiful, all dressed up. Another tear fell from my eye and he kissed it softly. "It's okay baby. She's in a better place now." I knew that. Everyone said that. That's all I've heard, but she was my best friend besides Ryan. I miss her. I wanted to punch the |
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Even If It Kills Me Chapter 14
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1 yr ago
Im soooo sorry that i didnt post the next day! Dx BUUT ITS HERE NOW!! So SMILE!!! lol enjoy!!! Even if it kills me
Chapter 14 (long chapter my loverlys!) Brendon's POV: I stood up and got my phone. I opened it and put it to my ear figuring it would be Summer. "Hey-yo!" I said happily. Some man with a very official sounding voice said, "Mr. Brendon Urie?" "Yeah?" I asked now concered. "Im sorry, but Summer was found dead on her bed today. She died of over dose." I hung up. I couldn't believe it. I broke. I started crying so hard and Ryan tried to ask me what was wrong, but I couldnt answer. I fell to the ground and cried into my hands. Why'd she have to go and do that? I was sobbing now and Ryan just came and |
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Even If It Kills Me Chapter 13
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1 yr 1 mo ago
Xo What happened? I lost like... half my readers... but it's its what ever. Im happy i have the readers that I do!! You guys rock!! Thank you all for the comments and buzzes!! <33 oX Even if it kills me
Chapter 13 {short chapter sorrys} Ryan's POV: I woke up in my room. My head was aching. I felt like I was having a hangover from way to much alcohol. I rolled over and there, sleeping besides me, was Brendon. He was beautiful. His pale skin so clear and perfect. His chest just moved up and down slightly as he breathed. He looked so calm. I laid my head on his chest and wrapped my arm around his body. This must've woke him up because his hand came up and rubbed my cheek slowly |
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Even If It Kills Me Chapter 12
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1 yr 1 mo ago
Even if it kills me
By me (panicfanatic0421) and my BFF Ashley!!(panicfanatic320) IM ACTUALLY GONNA EDIT IT THIS TIME!! lmao!!!
Chapter 12 {Bitchesss!! lmao} Summer's POV: I kept dreaming of blackness. Of stupid memories of me and him. I saw me and him on the beach, our first date, then everything went black. I was walking through complete darkness. Then he was right infront of me. He raised his fist and brought it hard to my hip. I screamed and sat up in my bed. Brendon jumped in the seat he apparently had fallen asleep in. I rubbed the bruise on my hip and groaned. My closed my eyes tight and the tears fell fast. Brendon was at my side quickly. He put his arms around me and I hugged him tight. His hoodie still had my masscara all over it |
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Even If It Kills Me Chapter 10
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1 yr 2 mos ago
Dont feel like editing so typos and spell and grammer.. ignore it! I'll edit later...
***WARNING*** ***"CONTENT"*** Ryan’s POV: As I was unbuttoning his shirt Brendon leaned up and started kissing my neck. He moved along my neck giving me goose bumps all over my body. I slowly took off his shirt. He laid there underneath me and his eyes were so welcoming. I leaned down once more to connect lips with him. As I did he rolled me underneath him. He kissed my chest and ran his tongue down to my stomach. It made me giggle. Brendon’s POV: "Oh so you’re ticklish there?" I asked him. |
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Even If It Kills Me Chapter 9
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1 yr 2 mos ago
Dont kill me for the huge long gap please!? Ill make this one LONG!!! Even if it kills me
Chapter 9 Ryan's POV: I felt alone and I didn't like it. I couldn't think of what to write and I think I would have gone nuts being alone in that room any longer. I began to think of who I could talk to and I remembered Ashley, from my first day in the support group. She was the one who held me as I cried. I asked a nurse where her room was and headed down the hall to the door that read 702. I knocked lightly and waited. She opened the door and smiled at me. She was in short PJ shorts and a slightly faded Motion City Soundtrack tank top. In her hand she held a sketch book |
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Even If It Kills Me Chapter 8
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1 yr 2 mos ago
Even if it kills me
Chapter 8 Brendon's POV: I slowly parted my lips and his tongue spilled into my mouth. Our tongues started a battle while our hands roamed each others bodies. He started to unbutton my shirt and I did the same to his. His mouth went down to my neck and my breathing hitched. He pulled my shirt off and threw it behind the bed as he sucked hard right where it felt the best. My pants were beginning to tighten and I rubbed my waist against him earning a low moan into my neck. He pulled away to begin unbuttoning my pants but I got his off first. Ryan's POV: He threw my pants over with our shirts and I continued to do what I had started. He had gone very hard, as did I. |
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Even If It Kills Me Chapter 7
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1 yr 2 mos ago
Even if it kills me
Brendons POV: I walked into the clinic the next day. I was two hours early. I walked to Ryan's room and knocked on the door. It was answered by a Ryan in plaid pajamas. He looked up at me. His eyes then sprang open. "Hi," he said to me. "Hey, I thought I would come up and, you know, hang out," I said wrapping my arms around my stomach. Ryan ruffled his fingers through his soft hair and grabbed my hand. He walked me in and sat on his bed. He sat indian style and just stared at me. He looked like a little boy. So cute so young and just amazing. |
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Even If It Kills Me Chapter 6
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1 yr 3 mos ago
Even if it kills me
Brendons POV: I tried to think of what to do. I looked at my watch, it was 7pm and it was kind of dark out. "I know this awesome hill that we could have a late night picnic on." I suggested. I was waiting for him to reject it. "Sure," he said to my suprise. We walked out of the hospital wing to my car. When we got in the car he unconsiously sat his hand on my knee, making more than just my heart twitch. We stopped at the grocery store and picked out what we could afford. We got back to the car and I turned on some music as we drove up to the hill top. When Ryan sang, it made me relax. I felt good being with him. |

