Time Takes Us All, So Why Am I Not Just Living For Today?

Ewww!! posting is so odd now!!! Hello all!! its been.. months. Oops. :/ I bet you all hate me now!! *sob* But, Im writing this as I go now. No pre- writen emails. and from now on, Its by just me. Wish me luck! <3 you all!

Even if it kills me
By me (panicfanatic0421) and my BFF Ashley!!(panicfanatic320)

Chapter 20

Brendon's POV: Ryan pulled in at our house not even taking the time to park properly. We all helped carry in the multiple bags of goodies. I ran down to the basement puling out old flashing and bright lights, a stobe, and a fog machine. "Its gonna be like a rave with candy instead of drugs!" Ry smiled at me. God his smile was gorgeous. I leaned in and kissed him lightly as Ashley let out a huge "Awwwhh!!!"

Ryan's POV: My cheeks began burning red and Bren stuck…

Shank me for taking so long! so so sorry guys! But here it is!!! Chapter 19!
I think its deffinitly gotten out of a story line, but went i continue actually WRITING it, ill try to get it on one =]

Even if it kills me
By me (panicfanatic0421) and my BFF Ashley!!(panicfanatic320)

Chapter 19

Brendon's POV: Ryan pulled away, and I knew he was right. We can go to the supermarket pick-maybe pickup Ashley. We got in the car and drove off. Next thing I knew we pulled up at Ashley's house in the pouring rain. She was standing on her porch in a black rain coat, rain hat, and rain boots.  It was funny to see a 20 year old girl in an outfit that would normally be for little girls. I couldn't help but laugh, and Ryan joined in.

Working on a new story (AND ITS NOT A RYDEN O.o!!!)!!! ( in other words ... this ones drawing to an end guys =[ )

HAD to edit this.. some of it didnt make sense from typos haha!!

Even if it kills me
By me (panicfanatic0421) and my BFF Ashley!!(panicfanatic320)

Chapter 18 ***WARNING--- "CONTENT"

Brendon's POV: He knew how to make me crack. He got the movements perfect, and made me want more. Then when I wrapped my arms around his waist, that did it. I kept hammering into him harder and faster, making his breathing quicken and taking mine away. I pressed down a few more times and I could feel his entire body tighten, including his ass. This made me push into him even harder. "Bren,i-i-im GONNA,” he cut off and screamed and moaned at the top of his lungs. I joined in as my body felt…

Ight Guys I have been gone for a damn long time! Ive got like 100 favs built up and i sure as hell aint checkin them at 1:30 am. I havent posted a chap inn a LONG time ad i feel bad! Im so sorry guys. AND HOLY SHIT! Makeover!! Its all weird when i came on im like WTF?!? AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAANYWAY! Ill prolly be on hiatus til around like.. january. I will leave u guys with a long chapter tho and im gonna need to write more im about up to where i last wrote. i really love all of the positivity ive gotten from everyone! Thanks oh so much! Happy holidays!! I hope you all have a white (insert celebrated holiday here)! I CANT WAIT TO GET MY GEETAR!! XD haha.

Here it is. Unedited (cuz im lazy and tired and had coffee but caffine DOESN'T HELP ME!) in its original form…

Chapter 11

Summer's POV: The door slamed hard as I sat on the ground sobbing. I had to call Brendon. I picked up the phone and dialed his number. "Hey-yo!" Brendon answered. I felt so bad, he sounded so happy and I was about to pour this out on him, but I had to tell someone... "He broke up with me Bren. He fucking broke up with me," I said through sobs. "Oh Summer! Why?"  "I wouldnt use with him. He wanted me to do coke with him and I told him no. So he left. And he hit me Bren. I dont know what to do anymore. I loved him. I LOVE him." I was balling my eyes out and Brendon told me he'd come over.

Dont kill me for the huge long gap please!? Ill make this one LONG!!!

Even if it kills me
By me (panicfanatic0421) and my BFF Ashley!!(panicfanatic320)

Chapter 9

Ryan's POV: I felt alone and I didn't like it. I couldn't think of what to write and I think I would have gone nuts being alone in that room any longer. I began to think of who I could talk to and I remembered Ashley, from my first day in the support group. She was the one who held me as I cried. I asked a nurse where her room was and headed down the hall to the door that read 702. I knocked lightly and waited. She opened the door and smiled at me. She was in short PJ shorts and a slightly faded Motion City Soundtrack tank top. In her hand she held a sketch book…

Something radiates

Chapter 7.
 
The first page was: "Are Lead Singer and Guitarist from Panic at the Disco New Found Lovers?
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Brendon and Ryan exchanged glances before getting up and running over to Jon. Spencer walked over curious as to how someone else found out. Jon clicked the article and up popped a picture from their day in the park. Ryan and Brendon in the grass making out.
"Shit." Ryan said looking at Brendon.
First there was the picture. Ryan was laying on top of Brendon with their mouths practically melted together. That was worth a thousand words on its own. Then there was the article. "So it’s true. All the rumors you've heard about the Panic duo are true. Is this real love or just a gimmick that they are trying to trick us with. For all we know though this is just a photo shopped picture sent into…